I’ve signed up for e-diets. I must do something to save myself from myself; I’m out of control. Here’s my food diary from yesterday.
9:30 am– 1 donut (I was honest to sun-god hungry.)
11:15 am– 2 doughnuts (I was still hungry and sat through a long meeting fantasizing about my doughnuts. What a rush of euphoria when I bit into that doughy ring of sweetness.)
12:30 pm– shared a bowl of queso (cheese, ground beef, guacamole, and sour cream) Chips and salsa Tortilla soup (this was lunch, but I was stuffed with delight after eating)
2:00 pm– 1 doughnut (I wasn’t really hungry, but sleepy. And in my mind a doughnut will wake me up. This is when smoking would be helpful in losing weight. If I smoked I would just go have a cig when I was sleepy or hungry or bored or stressed or daydreaming or talking or walking or awake or living- you know all the times I eat.)
2:30 pm– 1 doughnut (thankfully the last- again just wanted a snackie-snack, not really hungry)
3:30 pm– half a scrumptious candy bar thingy that included cake and strawberry filling. Yummy! (I remembered I had this delightful snack and had to enjoy it right away.)
8:30 pm– bowl of black beans with two slices of Havarti cheese (I was honestly hungry and it was dinner time.)
10:00 pm– bowl of Frosted Flakes, with fat free milk. (This was an evening snack to help me go to sleep. Also, I ate more than I wanted because when I went to pouring the flakes out they just bombarded the bowl and a bit more got out than I would have liked. And, everyone knows it’s rude to put cereal back in the box after they’ve escaped, what kind of karma would I be in store for if I put it back.)
This is probably a total of 3,000 calories. I’m disgusting, and my behavior is inexcusable. I’m not sure the e-diets will help much, because I’ll still have to follow the shit. Whatevs.
I’ve joined the Glycemic Index Diet plan. Here’s my plan for tomorrow.
Breakfast: Scrambled Eggs with Cheese, wheat bread and peanut butter (this is okay, but they want me to use egg whites…I’ll probably…no, I will use the entire egg.)
Snack one: Triscuits and ham (three fucking Triscuits!)
Lunch: Lean Cuisine (250 calories- bullshit but I’ll do it)
Snack two: Egg salad with pita (I have to pick another snack, this one involves a skillet)
Dinner: Turkey Sloppy Joe with salad (now we’re talking)
At the end of the day, I’m going to be hungry. But if I plan my TV schedule accordingly I should be able to occupy my down time (a.k.a. not shoveling food into my mouth time) and get through the evening. E-diets offers some wonderful and relatable tips. For example, instead of telling me that I can walk for 45 mins and burn XXX calories. They tell me that in 45 minutes I can burn one tostada. If I want to burn off my two burritos I’ll have to walk 102 minutes. It’s like they’ve been following me around. How much walking to burn off a bowl of queso and 5 doughnuts?
Hopefully with some dietary guidance (I won’t follow it strictly, but I will pay close attention) and my workouts I’ll see some physique improvements. I’ve been serious about working out this week and haven’t missed a day! I even weighed myself this morning and my little IKEA scale was showing a one pound loss. Only 400 pounds to go!
Let me know if you want any of the recipes from tomorrow’s meal. The Triscuits and ham is a very impressive crowd pleaser.
I’m off to lunch- a Lebanese buffet. Let the fantasizing begin.
What can you look forward to…my next blog, of course. It’s going to be about my dad’s all time favorite movies. It’ll be good. Promise.